Perceptions

If we look around and see, we have formed perceptions about each and every person, and we just act based on it.

Something which we do unknowingly becomes the key characteristic in other person's eyes.
If i look inside and think about the common perspection people of me...i am for most of my office colleagues a workholic, who has no life....:-)

I once did some leadership building course, as part of that two people were paired up and were asked to fill questionaire which had questions about the other person.
From my partner i got to hear, i don't want to work with her...she seems no fun types...i was shocked to hear that...then i realise maybe thats the feel outsiders get of me.

Recently went to a b'day party of my friend's son and my friend said, thanks Mataji for coming...man i could feel the age at that moment. I wonder what made him create such an image of me :)

I am still trying to decipher that :)

My Aunt
Went for a day to baroda to see my aunt, she used to stay in same colony as ours in delhi, only two years back they shifted to baroda.

Being there reminded me of lot of memories...
Uncle and aunty are very close friends of my parents, as well me. There were lot of time when i felt like just going to there place to just talk...and they could always relate to me...we never faced any generation gap. In delhi, most of my friend group has dispersed from delhi and i have made my mother's friends mine :)

My aunt is a very strong lady, who has lived a life which is an inspiration for us...never seen so one so selfless...she was the pillar of strength for my mom, when my father passed away. Like an elder sister, she used to take care of her.

I had planned to go to baroda when i had taken 2 months off...because of some confusion did not go...when i talked her, she had no complaints of any sorts.

Seeing now her in ICU...felt real bad...felt very helpless...could not do any normal talk with anyone there...felt whatever i say is utter waste and meaningless.

Felt how futile is this existence..there is so much pain around...

Could see some people talk general things "aapke yaha filter coffee powder milta hai"...i was like who cares a damn abt it... i guess they were trying to just have normal talk....even that is important i guess.

Only thing that was bundle of joy there were her grandchildren...twins...seeing them everyone seemed to lighten-up. Thank you advait and akshaj for being there for everyone.

I hope she recovers a bit and does not go through too much pain.

Breaks Over
Tomorrow marks the end of my week long(correction short) vacation..sob sob sob
Back to the grind from monday...
Back to the world of status reporting, tracking, losing calm :)
On the sidenote, back to the world of taking small tea breaks and small chat breaks
back to experiencing joy on wednesdays, as more then half of the week is over
and being in best spirits on friday

Yet still not ready to face the world(read office)
Khaas school mein hoti...bol paati mummy tuesday se jaoongi, monday nahin jaoongi
Ab aisa kise bolu...koi nahin samjhega :)

I remember in school the thought of taking day off meant, not meeting your friends
hence would rarely take off
In office, finding such friends is rare and sadly when u find them...its tough to take out time

Lets see how days will be from Monday. Having severe monday blues starting today itself :)